You Took Shelter, But Never Stayed

I want you, baby…

I really do.

But be honest—

You’re not feeling me like I’m feeling you.

I’ve been holding on tight,

Creating safe spaces,

Loving you right…

But still sleeping solo every night.

My heart’s so torn,

It’s beat running races—

I don’t know whether to love slow,

Or pick up the paces.

Yet it still drops at the sight of your face.

My mind spins wild

At the simple glimpse of your smile.

And you know it.

You’re smooth…

But full of it.

Your feelings?

You’ll never admit it.

So what’s a girl to do,

When every thought is wrapped in you?

When her body refuses

Anything that ain’t you?

But still—

She needs space.

Boundaries.

Dissonance.

Until you come clean,

And admit how much she means.

Love is fragile…

But I’ve held it together—

Cradled it.

Nurtured it.

And even when it shattered,

I pieced it back together.

But for what…

When deep down,

We’ll never be together?

~Kae Jaye